” One [thing] have I desired of the LORD, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to enquire in his temple. – Psalms 27:4 “

This should be our posture; a posture of pursuing God. To constantly behold His beauty, not just on Sunday or during Kesha.

And as we behold Him, every voice that disqualifies us is silenced as our consciousness is corrected. No more disqualifying ourselves from His presence.
Boldly, we come into His throne choosing to be aware of this one thing that nothing can separate us from Him.

SUNDAY
This was the last day.
I was going through all sorts of butterflies. This time, the knots in my stomach were tighter & stronger.
Breath in, breath out
You see, being told I was handling two teaching sessions in the weekend challenge did something to my soul.
Stepping out of the boat into the unknown does shake the soul, this I won’t lie. I wanted to scream and cry. But I chose to anchor myself on God’s goodness. My confidence was God’s faithfulness.

We were never created to bow down to fear.

The past two days were glorious. Hearts were continuously growing conscious of God. In my heart, I was assured that this day would even be more glorious.

As we were getting ready for the Sunday morning service, I kept laughing because my mind didn’t comprehend what God was ministering to my heart. And truth be told ? Tension was real inside me.

Through the worship, God told me to place a demand on Him & every time God says that, I know He is addressing my place & legal right as His child.

That is exactly what I did as I walked to the front. I took the mic and ministered to His heart. I literally felt tension leave me as God embraced me. Deep down, I was groaning. There was such a heaviness in my heart that I couldn’t ignore or comprehend mentally.

Tears started to stream down my cheeks.
No God, I don’t want to cry.
I always fight. Every time the experience of God is expressed through tears, I always fight.

But this time, I couldn’t stop them. The heaviness in my heart was too strong to fight. God whispered, ” Let your tears flow. Don’t fight them. ”
And I did. His love was wrecking me. God was running towards His children. He was running toward the lost sheep.  This is how He chose to heal hearts. The groaning kept increasing exponentially. God wanted to embrace His children. He was being personal with each one of us.
I remember Him telling me to tell them that He wants to hug them. Not a corporate hug, but an intimate Father-child hug.
This is how He chose to heal the broken. This is how He chose to deal with insecurities.

The worship team took over & I sat down and cried uncontrollably. I felt as if my heart was being squished. I wanted to wail. I wanted to wail it all out. I didn’t care. He was here & His presence was changing my world. Then slowly, stillness checked in my heart & I recognized that the atmosphere in my heart was peace.

Kindly read through what God ministered to our hearts & once you are done, go to YouTube and listen to The unfiltered life by Steffany Gretzinger.

5th Teaching Session
Wow. Okay. Wow. This is how He chose to move. The CU choir came and adored God with a song. You could see it through their eyes, they were encountering God who was boldly declaring that He isn’t ashamed to be seen with them. There was a rawness to their worship as they sang, ” Twakupa heshima na sifa zote, Eh we Mungu Umetukuka. “

We had a short break then prayed over the interactive sessions & rally.

During the interactive sessions, as I was talking with one of the ladies, it hit my heart how it is an honor to have the promised Holy Spirit. You see, many people don’t honor and respect the Holy Spirit.

I remember how it hit me that if Jesus was here on earth, He’d be restricted to a body that gets tired and how we would never have unlimited audience with Him. Like Peter had to wait for John to finish talking with Jesus so that he’d go next. Also, because of this mortal body, we’d have to allow Jesus to go rest.

Have you ever thought of it that way ? Also remember Jesus was in one location at a time. So, if you live in Kenya, you’d have to walk till Jerusalem or board a ship because, what was technology 💁 ?
You couldn’t DM Him or send Him an email.

Actually, if He remained here after His resurrection, we’d never have the assurance of being saved because it is the Holy Ghost who bears witness with our spirits that we are children of God.

I’m glad that Jesus went because now i have unlimited and personal audience with God because of the Holy Spirit whom was given to me to fellowship with. I no longer have to wait for Mary to finish with Jesus so that I could go next.

John 16:7 Nevertheless I tell you the truth; It is expedient for you that I go away: for if I go not away, the Comforter will not come unto you; but if I depart, I will send him unto you.

This rally was different. When I was in high school, my focus the whole of the weekend challenge was boys. But for most of these ladies, they had tasted something divine. They had tasted of God’s goodness and that’s why they were here.

God’s presence changed everything.

This was the reality that was being experienced. The presentations were worship to God. We were amazed that even the students from other schools were aware that God was present. I was amazed that the male students were aware that they had the audience of God. So even as they took the stage, they weren’t here to woo the ladies or impress them. They were here to minister to God’s heart.

Ephesians 5:19 Speaking to yourselves in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody in your heart to the Lord;

The bread, which is the word of God, was broken for our consumption by the anointed son of God & below is what he nourished us with.

6th Teaching Session
This weekend challenge was crowned by shouts of praise. What happened in these 3 days wasn’t by our might or power and we chose to give God the glory. He did it. He showed Himself faithful & majestic. The testimonies of restoration, healing, breakthroughs & a heightened assurance of God’s love rang in our hearts

Psalms 28:7 The LORD [is] my strength and my shield; my heart trusted in him, and I am helped: therefore my heart greatly rejoiceth; and with my song will I praise him.

God conquered our worlds. Every giant that sought to defile us was beheaded and the price was given to our King of kings. We praised Him because He deserves our praise.

The goodbyes were hard but in my heart, as i embraced some of the ladies, I was thankful to God for allowing me to partake and witness of His love toward us.
And as we were going back home, the confession in my heart & on my lips was Kweli Mungu Umetukuka.

Heaven kissed Kabare Girls’.