Journey With Me…
January 22, 2018
Building A Healthy Hair Regimen.
February 7, 2018
I remember
I remember … I remember how it was being in a crowd but feeling so alone.
I remember how i wanted to belong, how i wanted validation; that maybe, just maybe i was beautiful enough, worthy, good enough to be loved.
I remember.
I remember having to put on a smile to hide the tears.
i remember
I remember how i had to fight to be okay.
I remember how i had to battle with just not being good enough.
I remember how i tangled myself in sexual sin & how freedom seemed so, so unreal.
I remember making countless promises and pinky swears to God that it wouldn’t happen again, but effortlessly fail to keep it.
I remember.
I remember how my heart was full of anger, of condemnation, hurt …
I remember looking into the mirror and hurting, hating all i saw…
Then i remember His voice, a whisper in my heart, I’ll never leave you.
When i had no friend to relate with, He wanted to be that friend.
And I’d constantly think, ” wait till You see how much of a mess i am, You’ll definitely leave “.. But He didn’t.
I was met by Love.
In the midst of falling apart, He chose to talk about my hair .
My hair. I’m falling apart and he talks about my hair ?
& i remember capturing His intentional heart and how, that which i thought was insignificant, was of value to Him. I remember Him saying “Let me show you how to care for your hair” … I was shocked. Why ? My hair ?
“I’m a mess, but it feels You’re overlooking that… ”
..
Truth be told, I’ve always been a fan of healthy hair and at that particular time, my hair wasn’t in the right state… But it was the least of my concerns…
Yet He chose that..
So i asked Him, why my hair ? And He was ” This is what Fathers do ” 😭
I’ve never experienced fatherhood 😭
You see, i didn’t have that father to learn from…
Every thought i had of Dads was broken …
So when God said He is my Father and proved that He wasn’t ashamed to be seen with me, i knew in my heart that this, this is different.
I held on to Him and His promises…
He caught me at ” Hello, let me Father you & let’s start with how to care for your hair”
That’s why my heart is certain, God is a good Father & He does an amazing job at being that.
He is so intentional. He cares about everything in your life.
That’s why I’d love to share my natural hair journey with the world. Because i want everyone to really see that God is Good & that’s who He really is
Every fibre of my being yearns and cries to God.
Forever in awe of who He is.
My hair is my crown because it signifies His victory. He came and conquered my world. 👑
So every second, every moment,
I remember.
I remember.
I remember.
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The undoing😭😭😭
Honestly this got me feeling very warm and fuzzy😻 ❤
There’s so much comfort and reassurance in what you have shared.
Him Fathering us and loving on us in ways we can’t even begin to comprehend. He really does want in on every part of our lives; everything we do, want, think about and everything we are❤❤
Our hair,our nails what we wear(socks😎), our food… (Pancakes😎)… EVERYTHING!!
And from there we learn how to surrender all the big stuff…
I could say a lot of what I have learnt through this post😭😭
Thank you mammi…❤ Thank you Jesus👑
Baby steps√
More Grace for this amazing job Sharleen❤❤ You are loved darling❤👑
Thank you Joss for taking time to read through.. And for your lovely feedback.. God is a good Father… #Abbalongtoyou ❤ God bless baby girl ❤
Love that met us and broke through👑.Turns things around in aspects of our lives we considered the least which in His eyes were what He wanted to deal with first with just a *whisper* to show you just how authoritative and intentional He is over your life(You listened and we are reaping from your obedience).If God used that and it kingdom jumbosized for His glory can you imagine what He will do with the rest of you.When He’s finished…..ulalah 😃😉! ! I LOVE THE JOURNEY
#ThisisWhatFathersDo👑
#TrustTheProcess
Thank you Donald for reading through. Thank you for being in this journey with me… The undoing.. So that everything we are in Christ finds expression ❤
He cares about every single detail😭😭😊😊. He is amazing just like that😭.
We are Fathered by Him.
We refuse to be a generation that has a distorted identity and experience of fatherhood because of what we have seen or experienced. We will grow in and find comfort in knowing that He is our Father.
#Iamnovictim#IamnoOrphan#myFatherLovesMe#HeWantsToTakeCareOfMe🖤
The kind of Dad whose love is gentle yet so fierce. We refuse to be victims. We are No ORPHANS 😭❤ perfectly Fathered.
Waaaaaahhhhhh 😭😭😭😭😭
How Authentic, so naked and true, I have felt every emotion in this ….. it genuinely is just 🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌
#spoton
#soreal
Thank you for taking time to read through and for capturing the heart behind it. 😊❤
Wow! Wow! Wow! – that’s all my heart can say 💛
I remember!